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– To be what?
– Whatever you like. Happy. Sad. Weak. Strong. Glad. Revengeful. Keen. Blind. Good. Bad. Man. Woman. Whatever you like. And I mean it. Whatever you like.
– Neale Donald Walsch
Many times in the past I’ve said to myself – “If I had ………. (some stuff) I would’ve been able to do the things I want”. In my case the stuff ranged from guitars, computers, all kinds of gadgets to bikes and what not. They would’ve made me musician, designer, artist amongst others. I still have my treats now (and I always will), but I realised, they are not necessary for me to be who I want to be. The only thing I need is to decide… and become.
I started to remember how we did it when we were children. We were able to become whatever we wanted. Instantly. The idea alone was more than enough. The game was played, painted, expanded by itself. The only rule was – you make up the rules.
When I grew up I forgot. The “adults” managed to convince me in their view of the world. It wasn’t me that made up the rules. They’ve already been written by the state/police/mafia/someone responsible. “It’s the times we are living in” they said. They blame it on the time. But they didn’t knew that time is not a cause, it’s a result, effect of our thoughts. Conscious or not.
They didn’t know about the rest, too. Take a look around. Everything you see is an outcome. Projection of your consciousness. Everything existed in the world of ideas first. Then someone “took” the idea and put it on matter. Simple, but so significant.
That’s why the “to have, to do, to be” principle don’t lead to much result. Because it puts the result before the cause. Their positions are switched. Yet, that was the way I did it. For years.
But what happens if you decide to stop waiting? If you decide to change? If you start to act like the person you always wanted to be. Then you see how the world starts to shuffle. It starts to change for you. It becomes your world.
If you go for a sharp change the beginning may be harsh. It’s like eating garbage and then going for fresh fruits only. Cleansing is set in motion. The body and mind readjust in time. And it’s worth it.
It’s worth ever so much the effort. It’s the feeling of being on your path. Of doing what you always wanted deep inside. That word – “must” – I always despised it. Until I realised that what they told me was their “must”, it was for themselves. I have my own “must”s and “should”s and “have-to”s. I should travel more, I should learn, I have to breathe, I have to shoot with my camera, I must live on. I must try this and that and that. I must taste, smell, touch…
My new “must” gives expression to who/what I am. And I am free, alive and valuable. Even more – I am the freedom itself, the life itself. Abundance itself. And so are you. As you wish.
That’s why next time I will say my truth. I will state who I am. What I must do. And than I will do it. Without fear. Without hesitation.
One day I decided that, even if I starve, even if society crush me, even if my dearest ones turn their backs on me, I will do what I feel deep inside.
So here I am – alive. More than before. More than ever.
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